We are expecting!

I am expecting a lot of health issues =(
I went into work yesterday as usual and carried on my daily routine. Then all of a sudden around 3pm I had severe chest pains. I had to call my manager over to my desk and then I blacked out and all I remember next is the paramedic saying we can't read her pulse. I was breathing very light quick breaths that were very hard to take in. I remember them asking me some questions and I tried to answer them. I was very cold, gray in color and praying under my breath. I could not move all I could do was lay there on my work floor beside my desk.
At this time I was really struggeling within myself I remember praying the sinners prayer and for God to take care of my family and loved ones. I remember thinking to myself "Do I really want to fight to breath anymore" "Of course I do" but the pain was so unbearable.
They were finally able to get a pulse on me and rolled me out to the ambulance. There they had issues with trying to get an IV started on me because of my tiny veins. After the second try they got the IV in and we were on our way. They took me to CMC uptown since it is closest to my work. There they ran a series of EKG's, Cat scan, blood work etc. Then just after Brian had to leave to get our little ones from school the Dr came in to let me know that my heart looked great but he really thought that I had a blood clot in my lungs. WHAT LORD??? Why me you see this time exactly a year ago I was battling possible ovarian cancer and the fear of that.
Now I was of course thinking the worst and I just kept praying "Lord calm my weak spirit please Lord give me strength you knew me before I was born Lord you know my beginning and my end. Lord I don't want this to be my end please just ease my uneasy mind". I was so scared at this moment that I was shaking with cold chills all over my body.
Then the Dr came back and explained that he wanted to draw more blood work and send me for x-rays of my lungs. So, they drew several vials of blood and off we went to x-ray. That was not a fun experience either since I was still having pain in my chest but also my lower back and shoulders. After the x-rays I was brought back to my room to lay down and wait for the results.
I was pleased to hear that they did not find a blood clot but my blood work did come back with a lot of specualtion. So, this time we were off to ultra sound. This was a pretty lengthy ultrasound of all of my organs from different positions. The technician was very pleasant and talkative which made my time there much calmer.
Then I was back in my room to wait once more. Now Brian was still not back yet as we live a little distance from the hospital and he was trying to get help to watch the children so he could come back to be with me. I really enjoyed the feeling of needing my husband his strength his love. The song "he will give and he will take with my heart I choose to say blessed be the name of the Lord" just kept flowing through my mind. My spirit started to calm down and I closed my eyes and just thought of all of my blessings that the Lord has given me. I have a loving husband, three great children, family and friends, a new home I am blessed beyond measure.
Then Brian walked in the door what a sense of relief he always sees the positive when it comes to my health. We waited for the Dr. soon after the doctor came in and announced to us that I did not have a blood clot in my lungs YEAH! but, I do have a Gallbladder packed full of gallstones and I need to have surgery to have my Gallbladder removed as soon as possible. Also, my blood work for my liver showed abnormalities and it will require further testing. Now until the surgery takes place there is a chance that I will go through this pain again and I may need to have an emergency surgery done if my Gallbladder ruptures.
Tomorrow I have a Dr. appointment with our regular office for more blood work and to receive a referral to a surgeon. I would like to see if there is a natural route to take for these gallstones to go away I will be asking tomorrow. Today I am feeling better although right now I am having a lot of pain in my back and moderate pain that comes and goes in my upper abdomin. I will be on a no fat, low preferably no acid diet to help with the pain caused my these gallstones.
Please keep me in your prayers as I will be needing a lot of strength to make it through this trial. One of my co-workers sent me an email this morning "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops. How true this is I have been saying all day that there is pain in the offering. God has used my marriage and my health to show me his loving mercies do shine through it all andin the end I will say Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Weekend family fun

Yesterday we went by our land to see our building permit YEAH! This has been such a fun experience for all of us. We all feel so blessed to be able to build our home exactly the way we want it. They have the ground staked out and should be pouring the concrete slab this week.

If you read my blog about Gabriel being so full of energy here is the proof. Here is the outlet that he sparked magnetically.
Yesterday Lilly had a sleep over with one of her best friends Morgan. These two girls are so fun and have such a passion for learning right now. They spent hours yesterday playing school until they were tuckered out. Check out Lilly's legs across Morgan good thing she is a sound sleeper.

Landen with our neighbor Jacob.

Landen had his first basketball game yesterday where he earned the most valuable player star. He did such an awesome job and we are so proud of him. Good job Landen!

Brian and I invited our neighbors to come over for a time of fellowship. While the adults played RISK until 1:30am our boys and their little guy Jacob played Star Wars. Of course this was a special occasion for these three boys to be able to stay up so late so they were extra good to ensure they didn't have to go to bed. Of course all of the children were up bright eyed and bushy tailed at 7am this morning =0

I hope you had just as much fun with your family this weekend.

The New Footprints

Now imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking along a beach together.

For much of the way the Lord's footprints go along steadily, consistently, rarely varying in pace. But your footprints are in a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops, turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns. For much of the way it seems to go like this. But gradually, your footprints come in line with the Lord, soon paralleling His consistently. You and Jesus are walking as true friends.
This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens; yours that once etched the sand next to the Master's are now walking precisely in His steps. Inside His large footprints is the smaller "sand print," safely enclosed. You and Jesus are becoming one; this goes on for many miles. But gradually you notice another change. The footprint inside the larger footprints seems to grow larger. Eventually it disappears altogether. There is only one set of footprints. They have become one; again this goes on for a long time.
But then something awful happens! The second set of footprints is back. This time it seems even worse than before. Zigzags all over the place. Stop...stop. Deep gashes in the sand. A veritable mess of prints. You're amazed and shocked! But this is the end of your dream.
Now you ask "Lord, I understand the first scene with the zigzags, fits, starts, and so on. I was a Christian, just learning. But you walked on through the storm."
"This is correct," replied the Lord.
"Then, when the smaller footprints grew and eventually filled in with yours. I suppose that I was actually growing so much that I was becoming more Like You in every way?"
"But this is my question, Lord. Was there a regression or something? The footprints went back to two, and this time it was worse than the first?"
The Lord smiles, then laughs. "You don't know?" He says. "That was when we danced!"

For he will turn your mourning into dancing!!!